My mother passed away in November from addiction. She was sober for 8 years, we had no idea she was using again until we got the heartbreaking phone call that she had overdosed on “ heroin” (fentanyl) and they did everything they could to save her. I never in a million years expected this phone call to come in, as I sat in Dartmouth with my taunt who was receiving her first treatment of chemo.
My mother died November 5, 2021 and my Aunt lost her battle exactly a week later on November 12, 2021. I feel like my entire world has crumbled and I have struggled to accept it will never be the same. I didn’t get to tell my mom goodbye, she didn’t give me the chance to help her, I have so much guilt and regret for the way things were when she passed. I was so numb from losing my mom, grieving my aunt a week later was almost impossible.
My mother was a big fan of Dollar General, every-time I walk into that store I think of her…this time was a little different because as I’m walking in (and thinking of her) I saw this piece of fabric in the outside of the window sill. At first I was going to keep walking but something told me to see what it was. I picked it up and thought it was just something someone dropped and then someone else picked it up and set it there for safe keeping something…but then I saw the tag-and realized I was meant to find it…I truly believe my mothers soul was with whoever left it there and I was meant to find it because that was my moms way of saying-I’m still here with you.
Crazy part is…it crossed my mind to leave it for some one else because that’s how I am. Had I not lost my mom, I would have left it there for some one else because I would have wanted it to make another’s day instead…. But I took it. Something I would never have done, I just felt like it was placed there for a reason…and I was meant to find it. This heart has helped me in more ways than anyone could ever imagine, it gave me a sense of peace and hope that my mother is watching over me, sending me signs that she’s okay and she’s with me. So thank you for this amazing gift, I will cherish it forever and ever. It’s a symbol of love, faith and my mom. 🙏🏻💜 We love you mom, and the girls miss you so much, we all do. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you, I’m so sorry.
